Silly Hope

It's simple

yet silly

 hope

Ignite my passion 

for life

Rekindle my thoughts

for love

Shake me

slightly

with your benevolence

wake me 

from the slumber 

their

unchosen

breathe into my

existence

You awake me

Never had I known

such simple

words

phrases

actions

could

have me

touch me

caress me

birth giggles within me

soft and subtle giggles

that crescendo into 

warm

vibrant

vivacious

laughter

You have me cavorting around

as if distress 

is not my portion

You've got me

heaving up

righteous burps

of unbridled

snickers, cackles and hee-haws

my blissful chortling

reaches up to the very gates of God

I bless Him for you!

I was broken

and asked the Lord

to heal me

then TOLD Him

I didn't believe it 

was possible

that

men had destroyed

the womanly 

beauty

within me

unrecoverable

Now you

arise

out of my hopelessness

obliterating the prevarication

wash my soul with tears of joy

in a gush of pain

glee ran out of me

as if discomfort was

my new happy place

Now you

stand

on top of the filth

that paralyzed me

and

make me hope silly

a waterfall of happiness

races over me

I feel

accepted

respected

cherished

Your GM text messages

The reverberation of your voice

on the phone

laughter

from a distance

warms my heart

and makes me hope 

silly hope

outlandish and outrageous hope

that maybe

someone could love me

that my past

disappointments

disapprovals

discontent

the forces in my life

that caused me such

dyspnea

You

I believe God blessed me

with you

to clear the air

so that I could breathe

I'm breathing

and the air

in these old, tired, worn-out

lungs

feels sooooo good!

selah...